[Since he arrived at Exsilium, he never talked about this with anyone, because it hurts far more than anything he can think of. He strokes Mister Break's shoulder for comfort, letting out a small, defeated laughter.]
The Initiative could not have recruited me at a worst moment.
[But Mister Break is here with him now, so he shouldn't really complain. Even if he is never forgiven...He sighs again, wrapping his arms around him just in case he decides to leave too.]
[ Ah. Young master. Solomon's reincarnated soul, or something like that. Uriel's devotion is something he's always found a bit creepy, however sincere. ]
Tell me what ah —
[ He sighs too, except it's more of a gasp. Angelic beings of divine glory are apparently strong. Break doesn't push Uriel away, rather simply reaching back and attempting to loosen his grip. ]
[Oh no, he didn't mean to be that clingy. Loosing his grip immediately, he overly compensates by gently rubbing Mister Break's back.]
I exchanged places with Mister Cecil when young master was a small child. They have just met and young master realized I am the impostor. He...he doesn't know who or what I am, but he doesn't approve of anything supernatural and is very upset. He yelled at me for lying to him and left our hotel in the middle of the night, and I should have followed him. The city is not safe. Especially for someone like him. He might be in terrible danger, but now I am here and there is nothing I can do.
[Except press his chin to Mister Break's shoulder and blame himself for his idiocy.]
It is silly to keep thinking about those things, isn't it? It has been five months...[The frail smile he offers Mister Break is, at least, genuine.] Though I am glad I could be of some use to you.
[He'd always be divided, between heaven and earth, between his life here and in his own world. That is probably a small punishment for being a bad angel and a bad butler.]
[ All this touching. He'd been about to fall asleep, but this might be enough to make him wake up again. No, no — he'll focus on what Uriel is saying. ]
You found Gilbert. And though nobody can say for certain, if I had to bet, I'd say that you'll find your young master too, one day. And when you do, well...
[ He completely innocently hikes a knee over Uriel's hip and nestles closely against him. Hey, he can multitask, right? ]
Kids can surprise you, Mister Cecil. I suspect that if you tell him the truth about who and what you are, he'll forgive you. Even if you can't forgive yourself.
[ He giggles, soft warm puffs of naughty laughter, against Kevin's neck. He is also very much awake now, and who can blame him? It's hardly his fault that Kevin's skin is like fine silk, or that he smells like roses. ]
Hm, anyway. Your young master. I wouldn't worry about his temper, too much. People who explode tend to do it all at once, and then don't stay angry.
[It is true, in spite of his quick outrage, young master has always been fair, though Uriel fears that might make it even harder for him to deserve his forgiveness. Still, Mister Break's words carry some hope. Shifting and blushing at the delicious laugher, he picks the feather his lover was playing with and tickles his nose with it. ]
You place too much faith in me, sir.
[He kisses the corner of his lips, his mouth gentle and warm, lingering just slightly before he speaks again.]
And I believe it is time for you to make yourself decent.
The proper kiss startles him. It always does. Like being given a box of bonbons for no apparent reason. Of course, only a complete idiot would turn down the bonbons, especially when they give him such a perfect opportunity to ignore the undeserved compliment.
'It is very distracting. You are very distracting, sir.
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[Since he arrived at Exsilium, he never talked about this with anyone, because it hurts far more than anything he can think of. He strokes Mister Break's shoulder for comfort, letting out a small, defeated laughter.]
The Initiative could not have recruited me at a worst moment.
[But Mister Break is here with him now, so he shouldn't really complain. Even if he is never forgiven...He sighs again, wrapping his arms around him just in case he decides to leave too.]
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Tell me what ah —
[ He sighs too, except it's more of a gasp. Angelic beings of divine glory are apparently strong. Break doesn't push Uriel away, rather simply reaching back and attempting to loosen his grip. ]
Tell me what happened.
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I exchanged places with Mister Cecil when young master was a small child. They have just met and young master realized I am the impostor. He...he doesn't know who or what I am, but he doesn't approve of anything supernatural and is very upset. He yelled at me for lying to him and left our hotel in the middle of the night, and I should have followed him. The city is not safe. Especially for someone like him. He might be in terrible danger, but now I am here and there is nothing I can do.
[Except press his chin to Mister Break's shoulder and blame himself for his idiocy.]
It is silly to keep thinking about those things, isn't it? It has been five months...[The frail smile he offers Mister Break is, at least, genuine.] Though I am glad I could be of some use to you.
[He'd always be divided, between heaven and earth, between his life here and in his own world. That is probably a small punishment for being a bad angel and a bad butler.]
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You found Gilbert. And though nobody can say for certain, if I had to bet, I'd say that you'll find your young master too, one day. And when you do, well...
[ He completely innocently hikes a knee over Uriel's hip and nestles closely against him. Hey, he can multitask, right? ]
Kids can surprise you, Mister Cecil. I suspect that if you tell him the truth about who and what you are, he'll forgive you. Even if you can't forgive yourself.
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That is a bet I would love to lose. That said, you do not know my young master. He can be really scary when he is angry.
[And he was about to cry. Young master had not cried in years. And to think that was his fault...]
...I have never made you cry, have I?
[This seems like a real concern for Mister Break's angel right now.]
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[ He giggles, soft warm puffs of naughty laughter, against Kevin's neck. He is also very much awake now, and who can blame him? It's hardly his fault that Kevin's skin is like fine silk, or that he smells like roses. ]
Hm, anyway. Your young master. I wouldn't worry about his temper, too much. People who explode tend to do it all at once, and then don't stay angry.
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You place too much faith in me, sir.
[He kisses the corner of his lips, his mouth gentle and warm, lingering just slightly before he speaks again.]
And I believe it is time for you to make yourself decent.
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[ He grins at the tickling and wraps his arms about Kevin, returning his lover's gentle kiss with a proper one. ]
As for decency, it's going to have to wait.
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'It is very distracting. You are very distracting, sir.