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( Caesar tries to get her to think, too. Even when she tells him it's not her forte! She's a doer, not a thinker, and here she is, getting it on the homefront! Geez. Couldn't a girl just be all about the action?

Even if that has never been so true as it is that she's always watched the people and pieces around her, looking for ways to engage, strories to spin with an acceptable angle. So that's what pings to her -- stories you spin -- for good purpose, or for ill.

It's simply unfair, to make things relate back to protecting Oz, or protecting aany of his friends. Not fair, because that matters. Still...

Still. )

The Abyss.

( It's her response to that small break in words; the stillness of silence. Swallowed up again as soon as he goes on, in favor of a different question, something that only matters to her: )

Did Jack call himself a hero?

No.

In fact, he specifically asked that he not be called a hero. At least - that's what it says in his official memoirs. Though I feel sure if you asked him directly, he'd say the same thing.

[ Here he hesitates. Being dragged down in chains to the Abyss is certainly a fate worse than death but that isn't quite what he meant. Besides which - what has she learned of the Abyss? Who told her? Jack--? or Oz? ]

The... "Abyss"? Why, what is that?

At least he has that going for him.

( False modesty or not. True statement or not. self-proclaimed heroes usually had the most unreasonable things to offer, in such misleadingly reasonable ways.

She shorts at Break, crossing her arms over her chest. )

A movie from the 80's, and a part of your world.

( Unbidden, an image of mermaid Break pops into her head. Shell bra and everything.

Why not merman?

... Well, do you remember Triton? )

Though anyway, if Jack's a good man or a wicked one, not talking to him at all draws his attention. You'd think that much would be not so good, either!

[ Somebody's been talking. Probably Elliot. Bother. ]

Ah. Quite.

[ It's an answer to both her statements, so he lets it sit for a few moments. ]

Jack... affects a personality that is very light. He makes himself out to be a bit dense. If you trust yourself, that you can keep your discussions inconsequential...

[ A short, sharp sigh. He doesn't like any of this. It's bad enough being here, but Jack just adds another layer of awful. ]

Heh.

( She sounds far too pleased in that simple exclamation. )

Oh, I can do that. We'll talk about skiing. I never get tired of talking about skiing!

( AND NO ONE CARES AS MUCH AS SHE DOES for something she's never done, but that -- is beside the point. Now she knows what to do!

Which is, ultimately, respond to Jack. )

Thanks, Break!

---ah.

[ Now he feels a bit silly. More than a bit. Because who better to talk about nothing for hours and hours and hours than a teenage girl? ]

Er. Er, right. Yes, okay.

( Secret powers of teenage girls the ages over! )

I'll respond now.

( She hums, clapping her hands together. All solved! Sort of! )

Sorry to bother you over this!

[ He's quiet for a little while. He has found his tablet; he could go back to bed. Listen to the network for a little while and then nap some more.

... ]

Sorry.

I... I don't think I've said that, so far. But I am - I am sorry.

( Words are worth so little, when they can be broken so easily. But it means something to have them spoken at all.

And she is not an ungracious person, if at times, she's tempted to be. )

Apology accepted! ( She fairly chirps. ) You keep a lot in, bottling and stuff like that. I'd say you should look into therapy for the anger thing, but I think we could all use therapists.

( Which makes her laugh. Collette doesn't take her own suggestion all that seriously. )

Glad we could figure this out!

Hm.

[ He tilts his head at that chirpy tone. ]

Hm.

I think... I really do believe... that perhaps, just possibly... that is also true of you.

About anger?

( She asks, curious. )

Or about therapy?

( At which point she's giggling again. Been there, had that! She glosses over bottling. Anger she has trouble holding on to, though it comes and goes, usually as frustration. Bottling? She's more guilty of that, but even then, she overflows her own cup of restrained emotion too often. )

Keeping a lot in. Keeping it hidden, behind all that laughter.

[ He taps the side of his nose with his finger. ]

( The nose knows. Such a random thought to have filter through her mind. )

Not all of it! ( She says, amused at the outset. Her voice sobers into something more conversational; factual, after her own fashion. ) We've all got things we work through on our own. Besides, it's not like people want to actually hear everything I have to say. Imagine what whining from me would sound like! It makes people uncomfortable, and it makes me feel like I'm wasting time if I whine. No fun for anyone! And definitely not exciting.

( Forcing others to think about the concessions she makes or needs made, how things take longer for her, period, how this that and the other... nawh. Unless they were family, or paid, or mor recently, good friends, they didn't care. It was uncomfortable to be made to confront something scary -- which, for some reason, seemed to be what physical debilitations came across as to those without them. In how their eyes slid by sometimes, or they got nervous, not knowing how to ask.

She's not sure she can understand, but she's forgiven a lot of people for it. )

So yeah. Sometimes it's easier to be amused than it is to be anything else. My friend Kelly? She used to get snippy and angry. James would get angry, then get things done. I laugh. When you're in the uncute stage of life, after being a kid, before you're an adult, you find your own ways to handle stuff.

( Was that wrong? The other things she held in were partly so new she never knew how to process them. Then there were the secrets she was keeping for other people... aah, when did life get complicated! )

[ He doesn't answer for a long moment, apparently taking all of that in. Finally: ]

I can't argue with any of that. It's not wrong to laugh at the world, when it disappoints you.

[ His sightless gaze softens. Wryly: ]

That said, it's also not wrong to elbow it in the chest.

Well -- ( she says, laughing lightly; ) -- sometimes life startles you into reacting in a way that leaves a definite impact!

You needn't be quite so... so careful of other people's comfort. I think it's okay to say what you really feel. Even if you think it's just whining.

After all, that's a vice nearly everybody indulges in...

[ Now he giggles. ]

Goodness, can you imagine what Gilbert would do if he couldn't whine?

Explode, probably.

( She offers without hesitation. There's no real comment to the rest of what he's said. Break is right. But she feels like he's wrong, too, though not in a bad way. She doesn't hide herself away. Isn't that being uncareful of other people's comfort enough? Making them talk with her, touch her, see her, deal with her? Feelings just feels like too much on top of that.

And she's so bad at separating them anyway! )

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